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Title: Following the Songlines
Post by: Eidamir on November 01, 2016, 08:38:16 PM
Welcome to the realm of the Girl who walks between worlds,
follwing the Paths of the Songlines.


Someone told me I should open up a topic of my own to post my work, so here I am.
My RL schedule is pretty busy so I won't be posting very much, I guess, but having a topic of my own will force me to sit down from time to time and put my thoughts in words.
I will start re-posting 3 poems I wrote in another topic.
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: Eidamir on November 01, 2016, 08:41:27 PM
I walked between worlds - Caminé entre mundos
I wandered in dreams - Vagué en sueños
I never thought I would do it again - Nunca pensé hacerlo nuevamente
Never thought I could come back - Nunca pensé que volvería
That I would walk again between the worlds - Que caminaría entre mundos nuevamente
That I would live once more - Que estaría viva nuevamente

But then you came one day - Pero entonces llegaste un día
Gave me life once more - Me diste vida nuevamente
Brought me again to this world - Me trajiste de vuelta a este mundo
You looked into my eyes - Miraste en mis ojos
You reached out my soul - Alcanzaste mi alma
You saw who I am - Viste quién soy

Now I can never leave again - Ahora ya no puedo irme
Now I will always be here - Ahora siempre estaré aquí
Now I walk between worlds - Ahora camino entre mundos
Now I wander in dreams - Ahora vago entre sueños
And I won't never stop again - Y nunca más dejaré de hacerlo

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My heart reachs out to you
My soul is always with you
My body longs for your touch
To have you in my arms
To feel the warmth of your skin
In a tight embrace
Our bodies pressed against each other
Crossing the borders of worlds
My lips longing for your lips
To feel once again the sweet touch
You are within me forever
So close, no matter how far
You make me happy
You inspire me

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Should be sleeping by now.
Should be in bed, alone.
Should be wandering in the world of dreams.
But I can't.
Someone is keeping me awake.
Someone is in my thoughts and don't let me go.
I'm yours, I'm here.
Take my hand and let me take you to Dreamland,
Let me show you Storytime, the world of wonders.
The place where all worlds are born, as dreams.
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: Anatasia97 on November 01, 2016, 09:23:41 PM
Beautiful work Eida..  Happy to see you starting your own topic, and look forward to reading more. Hugs*
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: Kaitlyn1989 on November 01, 2016, 09:51:47 PM
Hi Zoe, so happy to visit your "World". I agree with Ana, beautiful words shared honestly. You inspire others already. Sing your soul to us, I am listening. *hugs* Kaitlyn
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: cassianna on November 02, 2016, 03:46:59 AM
Hello...

My super friend Zoe!!!!

I  liked see your topic here and I want said welcome to forum section!

I loved your songs super  Zoe. You will receive the "Cassianna Approves" GIF, hihihihi

One thousand kisses Zoeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

(http://i.imgur.com/zYcImiU.gif)
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: Eidamir on November 09, 2016, 09:47:39 PM
Hi all visitors of the Realms!
Thanks cass, ana and kait for your kind words.
I'm trying to find time to post more poems in here but RL is killing me.
I promise I will upload something new soon, it's already in my head I only need to find time to put it into words.

Kiss and hugs!
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: Eidamir on November 14, 2016, 09:00:08 PM
Here I am, after a long time
Walking between worlds can be difficult and very time consuming
I travel between too many worlds and although I wish to stay in every one of them I do not have the time, because one of them, my main world, keeps me very busy, so I have little time to wander in the others.
But today, today is a very special day for 2 reasons and one is well know while the other is very personal.
Today we have a supermoon in the sky of my main world, and the moon is very special to me.
But that is not all, two month ago, someone very close to me went away from this world to another, she won't come back, but I am sure that she is happy and she finally has found the rest she needed. No matter in wich of the many worlds she ended up, she'll bring joy and wisdom to whoever crosses her path.
I must keep following songlines now, so I'll say until the next time, and hope to cross you in one of the many worlds I walk in.
Kisses.


Zoë, the girl who walks between worlds.
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: Eidamir on January 04, 2017, 08:25:11 PM
It has been too long since last time I stoped here to write, I thought it would be easier to keep this topic active, but the Universe tend to disagree with me too often.
I never stop wandering in any of the worlds I walked, but it is hard sometimes to find time to sit down and write. I usually get too busy reading and the time pases so fast that when I decided to write down it's time to go to bed.
I have some things I'd like to share for some time. Some thoughts that made home in my mind and won't leave until they are put into words. So here I am trying to do that.


There are changes coming up in Mainland, and the future is uncertain, but, isn't it always that way?
The year has ended, and a new one has begun.
So many things happend in this year, so many changes.
So many people cross my path in all the worlds I walk in.
But there are a few that are very special to me, that, one way or another, have entered my heart and will never go away.


First, there is someone here that had entered my heart. She, with her sweet words and kind spirit has bring back hope to me. She made me come back to the wandering of the worlds, even if she's not aware of it. Our time together is very scarce but very precious. Each little chat we had, each moment we spent together is a treasure for me. Friend, lover soulmate, whatever it is, it is not importat, it breaches time and distance and that's all that matters.

In another world there is a girl. Short black hair, always complaining but with a smile in her face. Always in a good mood, so her complains are not for real, just a show, just a way to bring laughter around her. Her guitar filling that world of good music taking her good mood everywhere she goes.

Right there, around the corner, she look at me with her deep blue eyes. Her long brown hair dancing in the wind. Always with a smile, always bringing joy and laughter everywhere she goes. Her sweet voice making me smile each time I hear her singing.

And there she is, in that world were neither of us really belonged but we ended up. Always with her brided blonde hair. Always teasing and joking. With a heated heart, always willing to fight. But behind all that, she has one of the kindest hearts I've ever knew.

In some ways, she makes me remember someone very dear to me, someone that is here. She was one of my first friends in here and one of the few I still see around. She has a troubled heart and has suffer much, but she is stronger than she knows and she always stands her ground.

And there she is. One of the crazyiest girls I ever knew. Always smiling and bringing joy everywhere. Always willing to help and to enjoy life. She was always there for me when I was bad, she is a light in my darkest hours, and although we may not talk that much anymore, we always look out for eachother.

And that same last words may go exactly for the one that is my oldest friend. We know each other for more than 10 years... she is my heart-sister.

I could keep writing endlesly about all the people I know, all that people that make all of this worlds wonderful, but I think it is enough for now.

For those who are still reading this long post, thank you for taking the time to know a little more about this wanderer of worlds.
I hope this new year brings hope and joy to everyone.
Stay safe, and enjoy life!
Kisses and hugs.

Zoë, the girl who walks between worlds...
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: Eidamir on January 16, 2017, 08:35:48 PM
Today a smile and a thank you for stopping by, didn't thought it could mean so much for me. No, it shouldn't, should it?
Don't know, don't care, it's enough that it brought a smile in my own face and made me long for the day I see that smile again.
But also for some unknown reason, brough back to my memory three questions I heard in one of the Worlds I walked in some time ago.
Who I am?
What do I want?
Why I am here?
Three deep questions that seems easy to answer but they are not.
You may answer them quickly but then you should stop and think: "are that the real answers?"
The Universe will make sure that you realise sooner or later that what you thought the answers were are just an illusion and not the real ones.
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: Eidamir on January 30, 2017, 07:33:50 PM
My dear Kaitlyn.
I still remember that first time, when you walked toward me and asked if you amy have a word with me.
I remember that first talk, that first words as every chat we had.
We didn't have too much time to share, but we did share a lot in that little time we had.
You are a shining light. Your spirint is one of the kindest I ever met.
Wherever the Songlines you follow take you, I am sure you will share that kindness with everyone that crosses your path.

Until the next time the Songlines bring our paths together.
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: Eidamir on January 08, 2018, 02:37:02 PM
Is it sadness what I saw in her eyes?
I just aproched to say I will go out for a few minutes...
Her eyes... that was saddness?
I asked her if everything was ok.
She answered that she was just concentrated...
Is that the truth?
I came back and saw she still has the same look.
There is saddness in there.
How can I help her?
She wouldn't let me...
She wouldn't talk...
No matter, I will always be there nevertheless.
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: Eidamir on January 11, 2018, 08:05:39 PM
Well, here I am again, after a long absence.
My last post, which was the real coming back to the songlines post, was recieved with joy and a close friend of mine said she misses me in forum.
For that reason, I will try to find time to post my thoughts... never posted too much, and probably will not now, but from time to time, I might slip a pice of my heart in here.
I am not in my best moment right now, those who are close to me know what I'm going through, but I have found a refugee in this world, I have found someone who helps me to keep going, to stay true to who I am.
As I said, I am not in my best moment... but truth is, as one of my favorites song praises:

"All of my songs can only be composed of the greatest of pains
Every single verse can only be born of the greatest of wishes"

Hope this new year finds you well and happy.
Kisses to all

Zoë
Still walking between worlds
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: Eidamir on January 12, 2018, 09:44:12 AM
Following my heart
Following the songlines
Following you
You might not understand why
I will try to find courage to tell you
You might don't want me to talk to you anymore
But I need to do it
I need to take this out of my chest before it is too late
I have to do it before it kills me
What will happen, will happen
It could hurt, yes, but if I don't do it, it will kill me
It is time, I'm getting ready...
For whatever may happen afterwards.


Zoë
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: Eidamir on January 12, 2018, 03:21:17 PM
It is done.
Not as I would have liked to.
And it didn't turned out well.
But it didn't turned out bad either.
Now it's time.
It's time to go.
It's time to die.
Because there is no other way to be reborn anew other than to die.
And it's time for me to die and become what I really am.

Zoë, always walking in dreams.
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: Eidamir on January 13, 2018, 10:20:35 AM
I thought I saw a winter in your face.
It looks smooth and with a little gray tone.
Don't close your electric eyes to the sun
and do not be harassed to commit the same sin.

I thought I am a bug to your eyes,
I don't realy care what you say about me,
Don't close your electric eyes to the sun
and do not force yourself to die on your sins.

I thought I was reading hell between us.
The end feels so close and far.
Don't close your electric eyes to the sun
and do not punish to get away from your sins.



https://youtu.be/oBDjLk5Sf5U

This are not my words, but they express what I feel about HER better than I could. Although she is not here and will never read this lines, this lines are for her.

But for YOU, that know who I am talking about, for YOU that are always here giving me your shoulder and your ears.
I love you,
I miss you,
I need you.


Zoë, walking in darkness.

Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: Eidamir on January 13, 2018, 10:15:03 PM
If I don't sing what I feel
I'm going to die inside.
I have to shout at the winds until I burst
although there will only be time left in my place.

If I want I touch my soul
for my flesh is nothing anymore.
I have to merge what is left of me with the awakening
Even if my mouth is rotting to keep quiet.

I'm already wanting it
I'm already becoming song
mud maybe ...
And this is my bark
where the axe will hit
where the river will dry to silence.

The moments are already hurrying me
And my temple is a lament.
My brain spits out the end of the history
of the beginning that maybe will resume.



If I want I touch my soul
for my flesh is nothing.
I have to merge what is left of me with the awakening
Even if my mouth is rotting to keep quiet.

I'm already wanting it
I'm already becoming song
mud maybe ...

And this is my bark
where the axe will hit
where the river will dry to silence.


https://youtu.be/A8W5FI9UwfQ

Again, another soul write what I feel better than I could have ever done it.
This time I bring to you a song originally written by a great local artist which we lost two years ago.
This version is from the band of a former techer of mine and is the version that most deeply reaches into my soul.


Zoë, trying to walk out of the darkness
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: Eidamir on January 16, 2018, 10:18:38 PM
I promised someone I would share this, so here I am.
It's not finished yet, it's still a work in progress, but I think it's ready to be posted here.
The words are originally writen in spanish, but I'm making a translation for this world.
It is a song, it is MY song.
It has been more than 10 years since the last time I wrote a song, but it was easier than I expected.
Still need to be worked, but it is a nice start.

Never wanted this to happen
Never wanted to end like this
It's so hard not knowing what we are
It's so hard to find the truth

Could you look me in the eyes?
Could you look beyond?
COuld you see what I feel?
Could you see what I am?

If you knew what you are to me
If you saw mi tears.
It's so hard not knowing what I am
It's so hard to find the truth

Could you look me in the eyes?
Could you look beyond?
COuld you see what I feel?
Could you see what I am?

I would never understand why is it like this
I would never understand how to do it

Could you look me in the eyes?
Could you look beyond?
COuld you see what I feel?
Could you see what I am?
Could you kill me again?
Could you break the silence?
Could you leave the torment?
Could you see me again?


Zoë, still fighting the darkness
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: Eidamir on January 22, 2018, 01:26:08 PM
Here I am again bringing you the almost final version of the lyric I told you about in my last post. This time I will post both the translated alongside with the original words.


Never wanted this to happen | Nunca quise que esto pasara
Never wanted to end like this | Nunca quise que terminara así
It's so hard not knowing what we are | Es tan difícil no saber lo que somos
                           It's so hard to find the truth | Es tan difícil descubrir la verdad

Could you look me in the eyes | Podrías mirarme a los ojos
Could you look beyond | Podrías ver más allá
Could you see what I feel | Podías ver lo que siento
Could you see who I am | Podrías ver quién soy yo

If you only knew what you are to me | Si tan sólo suprieras lo que sos para mí
If you only saw all mi tears | Si tan sólo vieras todas mis lágrimas
It's so hard not knowing what I am | Es tan difícil no saber lo que soy
It's so hard to find the truth | Es tan difícil descubrir la verdad

Could you look me in the eyes | Podrías mirarme a los ojos
Could you look beyond | Podrías ver más allá
Could you see what I feel | Podías ver lo que siento
Could you see what I am | Podrías ver lo que soy

I would never understand why is it like this | Nunca entenderé por qué es así
I would never understand how to do it | Nunca entenderé cómo hacerlo

Could you look me in the eyes | Podrías mirarme a los ojos
Could you look beyond | Podrías ver más allá
Could you see what I feel | Podías ver lo que siento
Could you see what you are | Podrías ver lo que sos
Could you kill me again | Podrías matarme de nuevo
Could you break the silence | Podrías romper el silencio
Could you leave the torment | Podrías dejar el tormento
Could you look at me again | Podrías mirarme otra vez
Could you see who I am | Podrías ver quién soy yo
Could you see what I am | Podrías ver lo que soy yo

Zoë, walking out of the darkness
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: Eidamir on February 05, 2018, 09:40:10 PM
You were the first to see through my eyes
You looked into my soul and saw the truth.
The trouth that not even myself have really discovered yet.
You gave me your time.
You gave me your shoulder.
You gave me countless words of cheer and advice.
You helped me more than you can ever imagine.
Now you're gone.
I miss you.
My mind is still a mess and I'm still trying to go out of the darkness.
Sometimes I think I did it, but then, I see something, I hear something, I talk to someone and all that sadness is back.
The tears are back.
Will it ever end?
A hug.
A kiss.
An ear.
That is what I miss the most.
Hope things are better there than they are in here.
Hope to hear from you again someday.

Zoë, always fighting the darkness
Title: Re: Following the Songlines
Post by: JessiCapri on July 15, 2020, 01:26:54 PM
Zoe?  Never stop writing.  Never stop fighting to come out of the darkness.  Come feel the sun on your skin.  Let it warm you.