NOOOOO, this not what I came looking for.
NOT what I had hoped to find… not the words I wanted to see when sneaking into a forum I abandoned months ago looking for anything from another.
This news of Woody’s passing hits me hard at a particularly vulnerable time. Already struggling with thoughts n feelings of abandoning people I called friend. People I care for, connected with. People like Mick… who I failed to continue corresponding with, thinking there would be time to reply later. Never considering those would be his last words. OUR last words. Left wondering about the “what if’s”, feeling pretty self-loathing atm, a hypocrite. Damn my wiring, my all or nothing ways.
Anyone who visited this forum over the last two years knows of my feelings for Andrea, a few of you might know of my special feelings for Justin, Zoe and Pan… but I don’t think anyone here other than Andrea knows of my feelings for Mick, unless he shared them with you.
I first met Woody in this forum… where I met all that were closest to me in this world. Enjoyed playing his games, especially the F1 Race, though I knew nothing of the sport. Always flirting & bribing him (Pythia) with extra A$$... not that it ever got me a better driver but always made me smile, having fun.
When we first met it was a turbulent time for him back in 2016; first there was some BIG “disagreement” going on within the forum which as a Newbie I knew nothing about but followed the posts and we shared PM’s. Afterwards, it was “good intentions, bad idea” the doomed Beauty contest accompanied with its drama and hurtful accusations. Sure, Woody survived it all. But even though I did not know him then as well as I would… I sensed it wore on him. Convictions come at a cost. Throughout it all we became friends.
Though we “hit” it off from our beginnings, having our fun in the forum and Winter meeting place it was not until we both shared similar significant RL events that we would become “REAL” friends. Both surviving catastrophic floods, only I was able to rebuild my home, he was not. That too took a LOT out of him and he had already pretty much used up all his 9 lives.
Yes, Woody could be stubborn in his views and gruff too. He had his ways and convictions, just as we all do, perhaps less compromising than most. But he was a MAN of his WORD. You always knew where you stood. No BS, no drama, just his unfiltered thoughts n feelings. He was fearless in “his” truth. I admired that in him.
For most… all you have to do is read Mick’s forum Siggy / Sign-off…. says it ALL about the MAN.
“Mean what I say… Say what I Mean”
And of course….
“The object of life’s journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body but rather to skid in sideways totally worn out, shouting…..
“ HOLY SHIT. What a RIDE !!! “
BUT just because we were friends didn’t mean we always agreed. Especially when it concerned a mutual friend and their fallout. Woody held those he cared about to a higher standard than “acquaintances”, expected more from his friends Just like a parent would. But convictions come at a cost, tested our metal… but throughout it all we could disagree as adults, remaining friends.
And that is what Mick and I were… friends. Yes, we roomed. No, we never had pixelated sex. Our intimacy was in the words we shared and the thoughts n feelings revealed to each other. Though I teased n flirted with him often… he always told me NO, sex would only demean what we had. And he was right. Plus, I always kinda felt Woody thought of me as another daughter, very protective.
As tough as he was on the outside to most… I got a chance to see inside his fragile heart. Feel it. Turns out he’s an imposter. A BIG softy inside; caring, loving, protective, helpful. Loyal. And I don’t think Woody would mind me sharing his sorrow over losing “that mutual friend” of ours. Both of them stubborn in their convictions, costing them their friendship. Both good people, I called friends.
And while I have the vault open I will share a couple more “bitty” secrets… one that not even Andrea knows…
My feelings for Woody and trust in him was influential in my budding interest in “Andi” as he always referred to her. Well, you know how that story goes… budding interest led to infatuation and eventually my addiction to Momma_Andrea. And THAT is all I have to say bout THAT. ;)
Another… I am now just over 8 months Prego and so ready to pop. The moment I learned of this news back in late Jan my entire world changed, as did my interests and was the reason for my sudden withdraw from this world and later the forum. Woody was among a few I shared this news with and my struggles with leaving those here that still live in my heart. His advice to me… “Fuck us all, go have that baby and be happy, we will be here for you when you return.” That was the kinda the person he was. and Andrea IS too, caring enough to make selfless decisions that are in my best interests not theirs. That is real love. I have felt their love, I still feel their love. In my thoughts every day.
So much has changed in my life over the last two years, I am a not the me I was, influenced by both worlds, here and there. By those I keep close to me. Throughout it all i have come to know CHANGE, and the “give” n “take” associated. Convincing me there is a balance, ying/yang, in life’s scheme. Where there is gain, there is also loss. Where there are new paths, old ones are abandoned. Where there is life, there is death. But the spirits energy is eternal. Woody now lives without boundaries, without cares, without pain and thrives in the hearts of those that got to know him.
I have also learned much in the two plus years at Achat, mostly… it does not take physical interaction to be touched by another. The connection n feelings are just as strong and real. There is no difference for me.
Woody YOU touched my life. We made a connection. YOU won’t be forgotten. I confess I feel regret, wishing I had taken the time to reply to your last email… too caught up in my own RL and never considering it could be your last. Feel like such a hypocrite always preaching to live in the moment. That yesterday is gone and tomorrow is never guaranteed. I should have replied, I don’t get a 2nd chance.
How can someone I never “physically” touched or “saw” with my eyes leave such an impression, leave such a loss? I am learning the hard way these are irrelevant. For me… this is NO game. The consequences are real. As is the sadness… for all those I have lost here.
A Haiku for YOU Michael
Tough n gruff outside
Caring n protective in
That was my Woody
Will miss our dances
Always putting you to sleep
With nonstop chatter
Will miss our chats more
Sharing stories and feelings
Letting me inside
Living a hard life
And burdened with health issues
Never complaining
Living your motto
A life lived on your own terms
A man of your word
Friends, never lovers
Words were our intimacy
Honesty our drug
You touched my spirit
Revealing yourself to me
A connection made
My dear friend Woody
You will not be forgotten
Not anytime soon
Love, Kait
AusWoody as Mr July 2017 made by GsCougar. RIP both.
(http://i.imgur.com/JqVLUZs.jpg)
Listing of the Members Interviews in The Achat Tatler
14. AusWoody
http://www.funnyadultgamesplay.com/forum/index.php/topic,4631.msg161185.html#msg161185
AUSWOODYs Interview by GsCougar.
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1) How long have you been here? Why did you originally join? Has that view changed to now (did you join for the sex and now prefer chatting with friends)
a bit over 4 yrs, a lover on another site introduced me, imvu or australia ? not clear, for the sex poses now to chat.
2) What were your first impressions of the game? Describe your first day
great poses, played with robotgirl
3) What have you enjoyed the most about Achat?
meeting new people have made some good friends here
4) Your best memories?
the good old days
5) Your worst memories?
all the dramas of the last 18 months and constant bickering
6) What would be the one thing you would change/add/remove from the game?
the ability to have alts
7) What is your favourite and worst pose in the game?
not missed just not answered
8 ) What is a turn on in a partner? What turns you on?
confidence and personality
9) What is a turn off in a partner? What turns you off?
arrogance
10) Describe your ideal partner in 5 words
intelligent, affectionate, sexy, slim and HONEST
11) Describe yourself in 5 words
old fat ugly sick and HONEST
12) What is the worst/cheesiest pick up line you have heard?
help me with my premium, like ffs its less than a $ a day if you canty afford that get a fucking job
13) Give us your cheesiest pick up line
none of my pickup l;ines are cheesy lol
14) What, if any, involvement do you have in the forum? (do you comment on posts, join in the polls, the events – dating game, races, contests)
yes yes yes yes and run a couple of competitions and events as well as hosting (owning) achatsquare chat room (http://achatsquare.chatango.com/)
15) And finally what would be your best advice to a newbie?
be yourself always
Thanks Woody to share
♥coug
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